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Belly dancer in Spain

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What are your favorite weird food combinations?
Submitted by Dulce.

Haha. I only have one weird food combination that my parents never really approved of.
My grandfather, when he was still alive he would pick me up from school and would make a butter and cheese sandwich for me. If my grandparents didn't have bread, we would have it on crackers. It wasn't the healthiest thing in the world but it's a pretty damn good sandwich. Recently [this past Friday], I made one the first time since my grandfather died 7 years ago. I don't know why, but I'll always remember that snack with my grandfather and my grandparents house.

I also tried to eat a banana and peanut butter sandwich after seeing on a old Olsen twins show. Needless to say, I didn't like it but could you blame me. I was young when I used to watch their shows.

I don't know how to describe my mood or my state of mind as of right now. It's just hard to explain , when you're telling people how you feel when you have no idea how to feel. It doesn't help when you try to deal with a situation by trying to forget it, but are "smacked" in the face with the situation, the people that it involves, and realizing how much of a social reject that you are with everything and everyone.

I just feel numb. I'm just glad that feeling "dead" is gone, as of now. I feel alone, even though I have people who care enough to call me to make sure I didn't do anything stupid. The truth is, is that maybe I am better off doing that. It would allow me to forget that I'm a worthless person, stupid, and unworthy of anyone's love.

Ha. It's better if everyone just leaves me alone. Not that it's different from any other day.

Black Parade (Clean)

My Chemical Romance

What character in a book can you connect with or relate to the most? 
Submitted by Eating A Book.

The connection that I and Holden, the central character of the novel The Catcher in the Rye is a common bond. Like him, I tend to isolate myself from others, keep my emotions under wraps until provoked, possibly depressed, and vulnerable. Reading about Holden's inner turmoil made me feel comfortale that it's okay to feel alone because at one point in someone's life, everyone feels alone or misunderstood.

Which cartoon character best represents you? 
Submitted by Know It All.

I think one character that would represent me would be Fuu from Samurai Champloo, mainly because there is more to her than anyone knows. While she is portrayed as a ditz in the group, she's actually the strongest one out of everyone - mentally and emotional.